*DISCLAIMER: this will probably make you cry…but it might just change your life.
Friends,
After J-Ru came over and “fixed” a desktop computer I had been given, I started poking around on it. Spencer had uploaded this video journal to it. It’s long (58 min). I watched it last night. It was the first time I’d really watched Spencer on video since he died. It made me miss him terribly…all his little Spencer-isms (rubbing his hands over his faith, his chuckle, his concern for us, his amazing love for God).
It made me sad…especially because he/we were so faithful that he would be healed. I was tempted last night to feel like he lost the battle and his extreme faith was all for not because in the end he died…and then I remembered that that same faith that he’s speaking about is the exact thing that helped him WIN. He never gave up his faith in God and glorified God with his life. Spencer did in fact win the battle. God saved his life. He was healed.
Some of my favorite lines:
13:30 “I was stressed out with life, my grad school program…and I felt like I couldn’t handle it anymore…and I felt like God was pushing me to my max right now–and this was prior to any of THIS…and I just thought, I’m so ungrateful…maybe this is what God’s trying to teach me…and God says ‘You think you can’t handle anymore. Well, you’re about to handle some more…and I’m going to pull you through it and teach you to be grateful for the life that you have…and you need to stop complaining about the little stupid things in life.’ We all do it…and we need to just sit back and be so thankful to God for the life that we have.”
49:25 “And that’s the way I feel. I’ve got no fear. There’s nothing my God can’t do. There’s nothing I can’t face. There’s nothing my family can’t face…because I’m a Christian…because I have God on my side. Get behind me Satan…you keep trying to attack me, keep trying to make me think faithless thoughts, but it ain’t happenin’ cause I got no fear.”
Love you all. Thanks for loving Spencer…and me.
Spencer’s Video Journal from brianne whitworth on Vimeo.
Here is the second or third video journal Spencer created before his 2nd brain surgery on 11/26/08. I admire his unfailing faith and trust in God. There is a lesson in here for all of us.
You are forever loved and missed.
Spencer Whitworth
4.27.79 – 7.16.09
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